Making the most of it?

I'm looking in on the good life I might be doomed never to find
Without a trust or flaming fields am I too dumb to refine?
And if you'd 'a took to me like
Well I'd a danced like the queen of the eyesores
And the rest of our lives would 'a fared well.

Having read Maria's blog, I agree with her that you have the make the most of life and take all your chances. However, I think that whilst this is a good resolve to have, it generally wears off after a few weeks of thinking positively. You have good intentions, but then something comes along that kicks you in the teeth, and you're back to wondering what to do with life. If we made the most of every day, there would be a lot of excessively happy people in the world - and since there aren't, it seems we must be going wrong somewhere. What makes one person happy will not make another happy - so by being positive you may be inflicting something negative on someone else! An unintended side-effect of living life to the full. I think it is human nature that we regret things; we think back after the event, wishing we had said/done/felt certain things before it became too late. And sadly, I don't think this will ever change, at least not until time travel is invented.

Don't get me wrong, I wholly support the philosophy. But if I was to make the most of every day, I would be acting quite differently from how I am acting now. Believe me, this would be a wonderful thing, and I would embrace the chance to do the things I most want to! But I am constrained by the actions and feelings of others, by the state of the world in general, by a lack of money, and to some extent, by my own feelings. And so, we continue "getting around to it." At least I hope I'm getting round to something. I may well just be sitting here wishing my life away - at the present time I just can't tell........

On a lighter note, it's good to see that the Sorry Everybody website is now up to 150-ish pages of photos and apologies, whereas the rival Not Sorry one is still on - wait for it - two. Hmm. I myself have submitted a picture (to the first of these of course) but as yet, it has not appeared.

An observation about Canada: nobody rings you back here. You phone people/businesses and leave messages, and they never bother calling back. So you have to ring them again, and it just goes on. Like you hardly ever get rejected from jobs, they just don't bother contacting you if you're unsuccessful. Which is really annoying! So far I am waiting for calls from two jobs, one person selling a car, and a film extras company. And have any of them called? Have they bo****ks.

In listening to my music, I have resdiscovered Vertical Horizon's song 'Everything You Want' which I had forgotten I liked so much. There is something about it that makes it a good song to cry to, shout to, laugh to - whatever. Even though it's really a depressing song by nature. However, the lyrics seem to resonate with a lot of people - yes, including me.

I am everything you want,
I am everything you need,
I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be.
I say all the right things,
At exactly the right time,
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why.........

Total cookies today: too many. Have tried to compensate for this by eating pasta for dinner with mushrooms, red pepper and bok choy. However I then had another cookie. Damn Safeway offers on ready-mixes!!

Diet tips below please. Actually, good cookie recipes also :o)